anticipation..

Anticipation is probably the most dreaded feeling I can possibly experience. It's both an unbelievable excitement and an unbelievable nausea that envelopes be all at once. Meeting a guy you've only known through the internet qualifies, I think. Unbelievable guy, don't get me wrong, but jeez, I can't eat I'm so nervous. He'll probably read this and then I'll feel like an ass, but HEY, I don't mind. Alex knows me pretty good by now. I don't think anything I do might shock him anyway! Why can't I just relax? I mean he wouldn't come visit me if he really didn't want to, would he? No. So there Maretha. Breathe. It'll all be OK. Oh shit, what am I going to wear...