what where how and with whom

People are funny things. Take myself for example. I know what I want, I know who I want. The only problem is I don't know how to go about getting it. Aren't you supposed to get up in the morning and achieve something? I am a definite believer of that. I definitely believe that each of us is put on earth with a certain goal. I also believe that you won't die before you achieve that goal, except of course if you're not trying to reach your goal, that is. Does that make sense?
It's basically that same tune of "Be all you can be" and all that jazz..
Now how do you be all that you can be if you're at University studying the wrong degree? I seriously do NOT know, all I know is that everything happens for a reason. People always used to ask me what my motto is and I never knew what to say. I always ended up saying something stupid, you know. Since then I actually thought about the whole thing and I realised the following. What must happen, will happen. That is so true you know? So don't ask me, that is my motto. I truly believe everything happens for a reason. The reason isn't always obvious at first, but later on it will become clear. It's like this one truly fucked up time in my life when I was in love with my best friend. I would wish for him to feel the same way so bad and he didn't seem to notice at all. One day I couldn't stand it any more and I just told him how I felt. BIG mistake, BIG.. He didn't feel the same and I lost my best friend. Sad shitty story I know, and I'm sorry if I made you puke just now..quite a bit nauseated myself right now.. Point I'm trying to make is, that if he actually DID feel the same about me, I probably would be married by now, or very close to it, and that is the last thing on this earth that I want to do right now. And the fact that he was a complete dickhead had something to do with it as well I guess..
That's another thing. How do people get married while they're still studying? I mean, shit, don't you KNOW what's out there? I told Aletta the other day, I can't wait for one day to be married and to live in my own house and actually take care of my family, but that is still a LONG way ahead of me. I want to be able to take care of myself first. I don't want to be one of those chicks that get a degree only to get a rich husband, I mean, wtf? YES, there is actually people like that. Some of them studied with me..
Now the big question is.. what am I going to do to achieve all this? And where am I going to do it? And when? And with whom..